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I'm living as clean as I could, writing about it as a source of motivation, accountability and sometimes an outlet for frustrated cupcake cravings. Oh, I do like pretty bags, they make the occasional appearance here.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Missing My Best Friend

I had a best friend who was so dear to me, who was more than a blood sister. At one point, I even thought of her as my soulmate, someone who fundamentally gets me more than anyone else in the world, and to be perfectly honest, might still do. I was always so free and untethered with her, to be my real hippie self and feel absolutely unjudged for it.

Oh the fun things we did back then, partying, "it's 4.20 somewhere" happy hour, midnight drive to the beach, befriending strangers in questionable places, picking up sailor boys and sending them off before midnight curfew, the works. I lived through my 20-s in an adventure because she was there to give me courage when I feel like chickening out.

We had a falling out a few years ago though. I think as we age and organically change, we shifted priorities in life and do not see things through the same rose colored lens anymore. It was hard for me, like I lost an important piece of myself and am never the same again. I forged my identity with her by my side, and as I lose her, I lost who I am too.

I don't think we will talk again ever in this lifetime, but I love you babe. Sending rainbows and sparkles your way xoxo...

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